I resonate with so much of this I lost track of what I wanted to say lol.
I noticed you were writing a book (I think?) when you experienced this death. I've been working on something and have had similar feelings. Like I'm completely falling apart, but it's ok because the old me has to die so I can level up.
A friend and I have been working on new offerings, each of us separately, but we are both noticing some clumsiness. Like things appear further away than they actually are, and we are hitting ourselves off walls, breaking nails, etc. I realized we are taking up more space than we ever have before and our physical body needs to recalibrate.
It's all very interesting the things that happen when we are birthing something new.
Oh wow. This reflection is so wise. You know, I didn’t even think about that part of it… but you’re so right. I was expanding in so many directions at one time and the real low point came after I finished my novel draft. Like you, I’ve been birthing a few things at the same time, and it is so gorgeous the way life always gives us the chance to grow, heal and free ourselves by following the passions of our heart. I will say, after really letting myself sink to the depths of that portal, things are much lighter on the other side. I feel stable and so much more resilient (therefore things that scared me before don’t anymore.) I share that to say KEEP GOING! You are clearing more than you know and you will emerge on the other side of the forest - maybe with a few scratches and bruises, but ever so FREE. Sending you love!!
I really needed to hear it's lighter on the other side. It's been a long dark night of the soul, I didn't realize they could be years long. Going on three years, but I have hope.
Mine was years too... which is share just so you know you're not weird. 🫠 and I may have dark days still but what eventually happens is that you begin to feel solid again. Your foundation is being rebuilt which is messy when there's a building on top of it.... but you won't be left in that spot. 🌺🩷
Appreciate you sharing your journey toward wholeness. Indeed death is necessary for rebirth as seen everywhere around us. Dying is not easy nor is rebirth, but it's the journey. I like the idea that grief is the process of purification. There are a lot of references here that I am not familiar with. I have looked a few of them up. I have never had to heal from a terrible body or soul wound, so I cannot fully appreciate how difficult and how much work is needed. I do know none of us reach perfection, so at some point, we need to take ourselves as we are and move out into the world to help our community and our planet. There is much to be healed there too.
Ah, thank you so much for sharing! I couldn’t agree more! The rebirth we all go through (even if we haven’t had super harsh circumstances) is all so we can go out and be of service to our kin and our planet. If we don’t turn the pain into medicine, it was all for nothing. Thank you so much for bringing this up! Sending you both so much love! 🩵
I resonate with so much of this I lost track of what I wanted to say lol.
I noticed you were writing a book (I think?) when you experienced this death. I've been working on something and have had similar feelings. Like I'm completely falling apart, but it's ok because the old me has to die so I can level up.
A friend and I have been working on new offerings, each of us separately, but we are both noticing some clumsiness. Like things appear further away than they actually are, and we are hitting ourselves off walls, breaking nails, etc. I realized we are taking up more space than we ever have before and our physical body needs to recalibrate.
It's all very interesting the things that happen when we are birthing something new.
Oh wow. This reflection is so wise. You know, I didn’t even think about that part of it… but you’re so right. I was expanding in so many directions at one time and the real low point came after I finished my novel draft. Like you, I’ve been birthing a few things at the same time, and it is so gorgeous the way life always gives us the chance to grow, heal and free ourselves by following the passions of our heart. I will say, after really letting myself sink to the depths of that portal, things are much lighter on the other side. I feel stable and so much more resilient (therefore things that scared me before don’t anymore.) I share that to say KEEP GOING! You are clearing more than you know and you will emerge on the other side of the forest - maybe with a few scratches and bruises, but ever so FREE. Sending you love!!
I really needed to hear it's lighter on the other side. It's been a long dark night of the soul, I didn't realize they could be years long. Going on three years, but I have hope.
Mine was years too... which is share just so you know you're not weird. 🫠 and I may have dark days still but what eventually happens is that you begin to feel solid again. Your foundation is being rebuilt which is messy when there's a building on top of it.... but you won't be left in that spot. 🌺🩷
That's a good point about the building part lol! Thank you for sharing with me
This is so beautiful, thank you for sharing it all! Inspired by you, I have started my own little mini journey with Rosemary (Rosemary Lite ;-).
Yes!! I'm so excited to see how Rosemary Lite goes for you! 🌿😍
Appreciate you sharing your journey toward wholeness. Indeed death is necessary for rebirth as seen everywhere around us. Dying is not easy nor is rebirth, but it's the journey. I like the idea that grief is the process of purification. There are a lot of references here that I am not familiar with. I have looked a few of them up. I have never had to heal from a terrible body or soul wound, so I cannot fully appreciate how difficult and how much work is needed. I do know none of us reach perfection, so at some point, we need to take ourselves as we are and move out into the world to help our community and our planet. There is much to be healed there too.
Ah, thank you so much for sharing! I couldn’t agree more! The rebirth we all go through (even if we haven’t had super harsh circumstances) is all so we can go out and be of service to our kin and our planet. If we don’t turn the pain into medicine, it was all for nothing. Thank you so much for bringing this up! Sending you both so much love! 🩵